Are you looking for something? Did you lose something along the way or just feel a void of some kind? What are you looking for? May I help you? Did you look inside first?
One of the first things most people do when they feel a void is look for stuff. They participate in excessive amounts of activities and events. Some host events as a way to constantly have company. Some even do things they truly don't want to do to try to fill a void. George Moore said, "A man travels the world over in search of what he needs and returns home to find it."
Fix your home first...fix you. Work on dealing with your void or loss. What is the void/loss the product or result of? Have you accepted it or are you in denial? Pray, meditate, reflect, write...whatever works for you. Don't go through life searching for something you'll never find because you don't know what you're looking for. Education, knowledge, enlightenment, acceptance, understanding, strategy, and action.
It's beautiful to be you...even when you're introspective. Take the time to look within so you don't waste time looking everywhere else. Focus on you and your future...the rest will take care of itself. Enjoy your day!